I’m nervous. I haven’t written a word for two months. I walk past my computer, but don’t sit down. I sit down, but don’t stay. I stay, but then procrastinate.
I scroll through snippets from other peoples’ lives; skimming blog posts, scanning Facebook, glancing at photos. A never ending reel. Seeking what? Escape, inspiration, solidarity, comfort?
I walk away; chat to the kids, take them to the beach or the movies or a park, read a book or binge-watch box sets. Seeking what? Escape, fun, freedom, laughter?
Taking the summer off was wonderful. I’ve missed writing, but I’ve really enjoyed not thinking about blogging.
It’s given me headspace for other things.
I’m nervous. I’m worried that the words simply won’t come.
And so, I return to The Prompt (and my blog) with trepidation, but a few decisions made about where I go from here.
Over the last six months I have realized that this blog has moved on. When I began to write it was in the haze of baby days, a haze amplified by moving overseas. As my children have grown, and I have become more settled, and (dare I say) more confident in my writing, my blog has evolved. But this left me with a dilemma: is this a parenting blog?
My conclusion? It is, and it’s not. It’s less parenting, more motherhood. Less kids, more me. Less specific, more reflective.
And so, after a lot of thought over the summer, my tagline has changed. Goodbye to ‘parenting and lifestyle’, hello: live | reflect | write .
Photography has always been, and will remain, a central part of this blog. I will still record the moments and capture those moments visually. But, I spend an inordinate amount of time editing photos. It gives me less time to write, and honestly has become such a chore.
So, come the new year (because I can’t stop things half way through…) there will be fewer photography projects and more selective use of photos. There will be more words!
If the summer has shown me one thing it’s that I can’t go back to publishing as often as I was. Content is king, but quality and relevance is the charm. And nothing kills my inspiration faster than having to write something. I have more ideas and draft headlines than I know what to do with, but that doesn’t mean I have to write them all. Certainly not all at once.
The Prompt, plus another one or two posts a week, is more than enough on an on-going basis. And, leaves me time to add in the unexpected and say yes to the odd opportunity!
I had all but stopped joining linkys before the summer, and I won’t be starting again. There are a few that I love (What I’m Writing, Prose for Thought, The Truth About and Country Kids; I’m looking at you!), and I will join from time to time, but my days of commenting for commenting’s sake or seeking comments through reciprocal obligation are over. Which could be blogging suicide, but hey-ho, I am far more interested in genuine relationships. Which leads me nicely on to…
The blogging community is a blessing. One I am hugely grateful for, and one that I appreciate more than I can say. I have read so much negativity recently and while I am thankful that I have been largely oblivious to the big dramas, I am saddened by it. We all blog for our own reasons, and in our own way. Those of us who have been around for awhile have seen big changes; in style, emphasis, priorities. This is natural, it is positive, it’s the way it should be. There is enough room for all of us.
I am going to live my life. I am going to appreciate every moment and reflect on the good, and the bad. I am going to write.
I truly hope that you will stay with me for the journey, albeit one that will be following a different path than I expected. But, I am really positive about that. It’s going to be good.
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