I had a great post lined up for Country Kids this week; a post full of trees and lakes, bikes and huge rocks. But, I am going to save that for next week as today, this happened.
I have been feeling a bit directionless recently. Too much to do, not enough time. Dithering. I have worried that I’m not spending enough ‘fun’ time with the wee girl; that I need to focus, be more present. Not always thinking about the next thing on my to-do list.
This morning, when we got back from the school run, I’ll be honest, I was desperate to get back in to the house. Fridays are a really busy day for me on the blog. I like to make a start over breakfast, let the wee girl chill out with some TV, while I assess how much I have to do and plan the rest of our day.
When she stopped and started playing with the leaves, my initial reaction was impatience. I tried to get her to come inside.
She wouldn’t, in her stubborn, determined way.
I was exasperated.
And then, she looked up, threw some leaves in the air and the biggest grin spread across her face. I stopped. I sat down on the steps and I just watched her.
She had clearly decided that all the leaves needed to be moved from the ground to the bottom step, and that is what she set about doing. She was perfectly happy, she didn’t need me, I was able to just enjoy watching her. I took my phone out and snapped a few photos. Then, I actually put my phone away and savoured the moment. I was present.
We were probably only outside for fifteen minutes. But, it was enough to remind me that, while I may be struggling with a never ending to-do list, this is what it’s all about. These moments; and actually being in the moment. And that those fifteen minutes were more important to her than any activity I might have planned for later in the day.
Because she is two and a half, and that was what she most wanted to do for those fifteen minutes, and that’s what matters.